Moving towards the light

Today I stuck to my usual routine before heading over to my friendly neighbourhood float tank place. However, once I settled into the tank, I resisted going into theta. Each time I felt my mind swirling down the wormhole, I became anxious and tried to force the trance, which broke it immediately. I finally succumbed by reminiscing about my teenage years; every summer I tried to tan myself in the backyard, lying on a beach lounger with a book. I remembered the time a butterfly alit on my forearm (the part that never seemed to tan) and I wanted to know what that butterfly was thinking/feeling at that moment. It stayed with me for about 5 minutes and then flew away. For the next 2 days, I lay in the same spot in the backyard and the butterfly returned to me and alit on the same place on my arm. And then I never saw it again.

The sun above me became a brilliant waterfall of light. I bathed in its crystalline perfection. But it was no longer the sun, I was awash in something I can only describe as love. My subconscious spoke to me: Know that you are loved, that what you call the universe loves you. There is an infinite supply of it and you are never alone…it’s always with you. Love is not an emotion. Love is the hyperawareness of the unseen universe around us. When they say “go towards the light,” it means to choose love instead of darkness. The more love you allow into your soul, the more it will radiate from you. Be a vessel of unlimited capacity.

I thought, it’s ironic that I could only find the light in the total darkness of this tank.

I heard, You have many talents, some of which have been in the back of the woodshed for a long time and are getting rusty. These are some of the tools you need to sharpen:

First, you’re soft yet strong. Make sure those qualities are in perfect balance, and hide neither of them.

Second, intuition. You have both Ne + Ni, which is not that common. Practice your Ni. Your experiences in the tank have given you a glimpse of that talent, and now you must exercise it in the real world.

And third, the ability to make connections. Not with everyone. But you do have the ability to discern the essence of people by seeing through their outer layers of personality and appearance. This tool is rusty, so it needs to be oiled and then sharpened.

I asked, What are some others? How about my intelligence, my artistic abilities? I heard, Oh now you’re just looking for compliments. Those are the talents you know about. I thought you should know about the talents that you weren’t aware of.

And the thing is, you’re not unique. There are others out there who are seeking light, wisdom and truth. Even if you find just a few of them, it’s completely worth your time and effort. There are those who seek the light, and there are those that seek the darkness. You used to be someone who sought the darkness, but you have changed. Know the difference in others and make your decisions accordingly.

I asked, What about the concept of Time? Is it real or imagined?

I heard, All moments in time are happening simultaneously. Human beings constructed the concept of Time as we know it now. It’s an obelisk built with bricks that are seamlessly laid together–end to end, corner to corner–an almost perfect construction. Almost perfect because if you step inside, you’ll see that there are complex machinations within. But there are imperfections you can look for which can take you into other timelines. They are extremely subtle. It would take you several lifetimes to find them, and once you do, it would take you another several lifetimes to figure out what to do with them.

As the music started, I remained stubbornly in theta. My subconscious called out to me, Remember that love is hyperawareness! Remember that time is a structure that mankind built and that all timelines are happening at this very moment!

The music became louder and impossible to ignore. My subconscious said, Okay, its time for you to go now. Don’t forget what you’ve learned.

I emerged from theta slowly and in my grogginess, struggled to find the door handle. My subconscious called out again, Don’t hurt yourself on your way out–grab the bar to steady yourself. You might think we could get a lot done if you’re lying in a hospital bed for the next 7 months, but you’ll get more done if you’re mobile.